The first time I went into a Weight Watchers meeting was January 3, 2003.
I did well back then, because I was stupid and naïve.
Over the years, I see-sawed with my weight, which is why I believe companies like Weight Watchers are so successful. Then I started growing up, oh about 5 years ago 🙂 I started educating myself and trying to find out why I was feeling like an 80 year old person in a 36 year old body. I wanted to know why my allergies are running rampant, why my anxiety and depression were so bad, why I never woke up feeling refreshed and why I couldn’t put two thoughts together.
Everywhere I turned, led me to food and diet.
I was doing it all wrong.
I was following Weight Watchers protocol. I was listening to the commercials that told me if I ate 100 calorie snack bars and fat free cheese that I would lose weight. I was listening to them tell me that aspartame was good and that sugar was bad.
Lies, all lies!
OK, well maybe sugar is a bit of a shit starter, but I would rather be friends with sugar than with aspartame. But that’s me. Listen, use honey…coconut sugar, you have options!
July 4, 2014 I had hit my “a-ha” moment. I saw myself in a bathing suit and cried. I stepped on the scale and saw the number 255 show up and cried some more. I was 255 before, but I was growing a human being in my belly…..totally different.
The next day I went shopping and I stopped buying all the crap. I started cooking from scratch and we only ate out once a week at “good choice restaurants” and the weight started falling off. I was losing so much weight and inches that at one point I went to the doctor because I was convinced I was dying.
I had lost 40 lbs in a 6 month time span and I went from size 22 to 16!
Then my weight loss efforts stalled and in February of 2015, I joined Weight Watchers again 🙁
By May of 2015, my anxiety and depression was the worst it has ever been. It took everything for me to get out of bed in the morning, it took all I had to take a shower, brush my teeth, do the dishes, keep up with the housework…..which most of the days, didn’t even happen.
I followed their SmartPoints program because they deem it to be the healthiest program ever.
Yeah, my left foot!
In June of 2017 I finally had enough, I had gained 20 pounds back since February of 2015. I know on average that doesn’t seem like a lot, but to me….it was horrible. I’ve been back on anxiety medication, my house is in shambles, I either sleep too much or not enough and just a plain ole hot mess.
Now, here I sit, encouraging all of you to just eat healthy. Nourish your body with good fuel and your soul with self care.
How, here I sit, completely vulnerable telling you that I have to pick up my pieces one by one. I have to deep clean every inch of my house because it hadn’t been done since 2015. I have to essentially start over from day one again.
So, you see, this isn’t just a weight loss journey for me. It has turned into so much more. This journey of mine now encompasses getting healthy, getting organized, cleaning my home and turning it into a sanctuary that I want to come home to, taking care of myself, loving up on my family and learning how to have fun again.
My hope is that I can help just 1 person out there who is or was suffering like I am and was. If you are, please know that you are never alone….people just don’t want to talk about it. But I do, I’m here to talk about it! Please reach out!!